April 27, 2008 Leave a comment
I have not received further updates regarding the complaints against me since the last hearing I attended to last April 2, 2008. I have attempted to reach the SWDB and they told me that it was still underway and still in process.
Honestly, the delay of these proceedings give me the creeps; I do not know what will happen next. While on one hand I really want to stand in defense of the truth, the unspoken and unheard pressure by virtue of the case’s maintained existence leaves me hanging. And this becomes more extreme as enrollment for 1st semester ’08-’09 comes so damn close.
But nonetheless, I cannot do anything since I am “just a student”, paralyzed by this system. I never knew telling the truth was this difficult. And I never knew that the pressure feels more grave as this issue dies down second per second; it is really hard.
Now, I just derive strength from the Lord, a God who provides me with so much fortitude and so much resilience to face brand new days and brand new evenings. He is a God who taught me to trust in Him and if I do, He will Take Care of the Rest.
Amid all these, I am comforted by the Lord’s unseen but felt presence, the support of my mother, and the support of my friends. I am comforted by all these, plus the fact that no matter what happens, I have proven to myself that I am one indestructible and unshakable person in the middle of these concerns.
I would like to quote a verse from the song “When You Believe” by Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey, a song from which I get inspiration from:
“There can be miracles if you believe. Though hope is frail, it’s hard to kill. Who knows what miracles you can achieve when you believe…”
Now, I just leave everything to God.